I'm so tired of being stressed about money- of not being able to do the things I want. The things that make me happy. I'm so tired of paying off school loans. Loans I took out so I could get degrees in Social Work to spend my life helping others. Loans I took out because … Continue reading The American Scheme
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Wildly Racing
I love me. I've never loved anyone harder. Stronger. Longer. I've loved me through everything. I've loved me through heartbreak and loneliness. I've loved me through abuse and mental illness. Through triggers and traumas. Through growth and pain. No one has ever loved me like I do. I choose me. Every time, I choose me, … Continue reading Wildly Racing
Depression Drags me Down
Depression Drags me down, clawing at the earth, into the black abyss; Into a chasm stretching far and wide filled only with self loathing and loneliness. Anxiety knocks at the door, ever ready to remind me of the responsibilities left unattended as the depression tightens it's dirty claws around my throat. Trash piles up. Scum … Continue reading Depression Drags me Down
Absolute Acceptance
If my life were a book, this chapter would be acceptance. Acceptance of others and of myself. Acceptance of the things I cannot change. Acceptance of my family and the fact they may never live up to my expectations. Acceptance of the human race and the state of the world today. Acceptance of people who … Continue reading Absolute Acceptance
Doubting Dogma in the Deep South
It occurred to me recently that coming out as a non-believer in the bible belt is not all that different from coming out as LGBTQ. If you're lucky you might get a "We STILL love you." If you're not lucky you're disowned. I suppose I am lucky they still love me. What a horrible feeling … Continue reading Doubting Dogma in the Deep South
World Wariness
I'm not even sure if the term "World Wariness" is the correct term. It's the closest thing I've come across though to describe this deep, soul crushing sadness at the state of our world and how far humans have come from everything we could be. We are capable of so much compassion and kindness, and … Continue reading World Wariness
Trying to Top Trauma
Life, can be a bitch. Mine certainly hasn't always been kind to me. My childhood was riddled with trauma and loss leaving me as an adult with deep-rooted insecurities, mental health battles, and defense mechanisms that make it difficult for anyone to get close to me, much less love me. Breaking down these barriers and … Continue reading Trying to Top Trauma